Krash (the_big_bear) wrote,
Krash
the_big_bear

someone? anyone?

please explain....why am I having one of the finest summers(of my life), yet...at the end of the night, my heart is heavy for her...I have the urge to call/e-mail and ask how she is...and does she remember me...and miss me...I feel such the looser...why is life so difficult?  I've had other offers...yet she still remains in the back of my brain..do I contact her? was she the *true* love of my life?  I think not...otherwise she'd be here now...am I wrong?  Did a great gig in Hartford tonight...she'd have loved it...lots of songs we've dug...time we've shared...I'm a sad, romantic moron...she'll alway's own a piece of my soul...God, I'd give my right arm not to remember/forget her...I want to be free of her...please God...why must this hurt so much for so long...thought by now she'd be erased from my mind...I feel so empty and hollow...how did I allow this to happen?  This is what you get for trusting/believing/faith in someone...lesson learned...deep down, my crime was enthusism/love/earnest...I'm guilty...put me up against the fucking wall and put me out of my misery...is it so wrong to love someone like you want to be loved?  guess so...once again...lesson I'd prefered not to learn...big_bear_love
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